Had a rough day,, & a mixture of thoughts rushed through my mind throughout this holiday.
&& here they are:
- I can't wait to play with you in heaven, Enzo!
- Will our wings touch when we hug in heaven?
- Should I be thankful for your existence or devastated about your death?
- Why wasn't my love enough to keep you healthy?
- No matter how many tears I cry, the pain remains.
- I will miss you forever. Until God sends for me, then I'll see your beautiful face once again.
- Can I hear heaven cry tears of an angel?
- I want to stop every clock, I want it to be July 28, 2011 at 11:18pm forever. PLEASE!
- I'm here, don't you fear Enzo. Don't let go!
- How do I breathe without you here in my arms?
- Every second that passes is one less that I have to spend without you, Enzo.
- Sometimes it's a lesson learned, other times it hurts instead (yea, I learned various lessons, but it has destroyed me in every way).
- Enzo, let's dance in the moonlight :)
- You are my love story. The love of my life!
- Sleep in heavenly peace, baby*
Shine bright,
Fly high,
Laugh hard,
Love always.
Mami is going crazy my love. I truly can't cope with losing you. You were my dream come true, and now you're gone. How do I express my love to you? How do I make you feel safe? How do I feed you? How do I educate you? How? I don't have you here to do that! God, why? Why not me... it's just so cruel. This has left me completely broken and emotionally exhausted. I need you pupo.
I have so many emotions. So many things to say. So many words mixed up in my emotions. Pain, hurt, devastation, ache, love, sadness, confusion, breathless, speechless, exhaustion, time, maybe, what if, why not me, guilt, regret, anger, angel.
What do I do with those words? What do I do with my life now that you're gone? Why? Why? WHY?!
Aiii hijo, el dolor que siento duele. El no tenerte conmigo me destroza cada vez mas el corazon.
-Mama, que cada dia esta mas loca. Ya no se que mas hacer...
&& here they are:
- I can't wait to play with you in heaven, Enzo!
- Will our wings touch when we hug in heaven?
- Should I be thankful for your existence or devastated about your death?
- Why wasn't my love enough to keep you healthy?
- No matter how many tears I cry, the pain remains.
- I will miss you forever. Until God sends for me, then I'll see your beautiful face once again.
- Can I hear heaven cry tears of an angel?
- I want to stop every clock, I want it to be July 28, 2011 at 11:18pm forever. PLEASE!
- I'm here, don't you fear Enzo. Don't let go!
- How do I breathe without you here in my arms?
- Every second that passes is one less that I have to spend without you, Enzo.
- Sometimes it's a lesson learned, other times it hurts instead (yea, I learned various lessons, but it has destroyed me in every way).
- Enzo, let's dance in the moonlight :)
- You are my love story. The love of my life!
- Sleep in heavenly peace, baby*
Shine bright,
Fly high,
Laugh hard,
Love always.
Mami is going crazy my love. I truly can't cope with losing you. You were my dream come true, and now you're gone. How do I express my love to you? How do I make you feel safe? How do I feed you? How do I educate you? How? I don't have you here to do that! God, why? Why not me... it's just so cruel. This has left me completely broken and emotionally exhausted. I need you pupo.
I have so many emotions. So many things to say. So many words mixed up in my emotions. Pain, hurt, devastation, ache, love, sadness, confusion, breathless, speechless, exhaustion, time, maybe, what if, why not me, guilt, regret, anger, angel.
What do I do with those words? What do I do with my life now that you're gone? Why? Why? WHY?!
Aiii hijo, el dolor que siento duele. El no tenerte conmigo me destroza cada vez mas el corazon.
-Mama, que cada dia esta mas loca. Ya no se que mas hacer...