... but they don't realize that sometimes it's a lesson learned and other times it hurts instead...
You are like the ocean, like a never-ending clear blue ocean. Like the shining stars, like those bright yellow, glittering stars. You are like the sky, the moon, and the sun. You are always there. You are eternal. You are happiness, bliss, and love.
I will always live with an empty heart and a broken smile. You are my missing puzzle piece. I am not complete without you. I am one with you. We are one. You are my one and only.
You are my four leaf clover, my other half, "mi media naranja"... baby, you are my everything. I miss you so much, Enzo. If only people knew the pain, the emptiness, the loneliness, the guilt, the ache, the confusion... if only.
How do I continue to live without you? How? Why? I don't know how to... I can't. I would have been 32 weeks right now bubu. I would be... but I'm not. December 5th would be your due date. It would be... but it's not. How can life be so cruel? How does this exist? Why not me instead of you? Why us? If only things would have been different... if only... ... ... no words. I really have no words. I just don't know.
You know, someone once asked me why I'm so crazy. If only they knew... if only they knew that my head goes from wanting to live forever in order to continue your legacy and tell your story, Enzo... ... to wanting to kill myself from the pain in my heart. From realizing that I'm never going to see you again until the day we meet again in heaven. If only they knew. If only they understood the confusion and the sudden changes in my every day... but they don't. And we have to take in all of their rude remarks... ... ... it's hard. It's really hard. I truly don't understand how life can be so cruel. I just don't...
I love you E N Z O * Thank you for being the only happiness in my life. For being the reason for my existence. For giving me the tears and the smiles. I live for you. I love you and I miss you pupo. I really do. I'm hurting... please be close to mami. I love you so much. You are goodness, you are perfection. Please know that. I am sooo proud of you and I love you so much. There are no words, my love. Te amo. Te amo con locura!
-Mama