Enzo, it has been one month since I gave birth to you. One month since I held you in my arms. One month too many, one month too long. This day brings me extreme pain and sadness... because I miss you more than ever baby boy. But I am using every last bit of strength that I have to smile. To smile because it is your first month out of my belly. And I am happy. Sad, but happy. Happy remembering every second of those 4 hours and 25 minutes you gave us. Thanking you for being born alive to give us those unforgettable moments with you. Admiring you for being so brave, courageous, and powerful. It is now 11:55pm, exactly one month and 37 minutes since you made me a mother. Exactly one month and 37 minutes since I met my sweet little angel. And exactly 3 hours and 48 minutes since you grew your wings. Right now I am just sitting and remembering every single memory we shared together. I remember talking to you with daddy, promising you many things. I remember baptizing you in my arms while daddy held the seashell. I remember moving my bed to see you take a bath and get clothed so you would be all pretty for mommy & daddy. I remember taking many pictures of you, which I live for today.
Many said there was a decent chance of you being born an angel... but no! You wanted to meet daddy and your grandmas and grandpa. You already knew me all too well, peanut. But you were eager to put a scent to those voices you heard those 5 months and 1 week. You loved us and we loved you so much that you held on strong, bubu! You wanted to know more about your crazy, crazy family :) You defeated all odds. You are our champion! Our shining star.
We live by those memories we had with you. We are nothing without your pictures. We have changed due to all the life lessons you taught us. We are beyond greatful for your existence. We are eternally thankful for giving us your whole life. And we are dedicating ours to you. You will live through us and we will live for you.
I have so many things to say in this blog. It's a very special one... it's your first angelversary (one month). It's the toughest blog I've had to write. I don't know exactly what to say because I'm sad (missing you) but smiling at our memories. You gave us more than we could have asked for by being born alive and giving us those long 4 hours and 25 minutes, so I will not be sad for you have given me something to rejoice.
I hope you liked the balloons. Your uncle Jeremias decorated some and the rest were your grandpa's artwork :) We each wrote you a letter for you to read on your special day. I know, mommy's was very long but there was so much I needed to say! You are the apple of my eyes, my sweet Enzo.
You are my wonderwall. My here, there, and everywhere. You are each and every second of my life. Each and every beat of my broken heart.
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity <3
For you my baby boy, for your strength, your bravery, your courage, your patience, your understanding, your love, your lessons taught, your life, your love. I know you are and will always be by my side. I always see you, in various different ways but it's always you. Always close to mama. That's my boy! :) I love you Enzo Leandre Griffit. This day, one month ago, I wish would have never ended. But 12 o'clock came and it was officially the 29th. I am now staring at the clock begging it to stop ticking. I want no more time to go by. I want it to stay here forever. I don't want it to be 3:43am. Please! I hope you have an amazing celebration up there with all of your friends. Have fun, enjoy, and I'll be waiting in bed to sleep with you. And you can tell me all about the party, your friends, the cake and all of the presents you got! Eat a lot of cake for mommy!!
Te amo Enzo. Te amo con todas mis fuerzas, con todo mi alma, con todo mi ser. Te extraño hijo. Te extraño mas de lo que las palabras me dejan espresar. Te necesito campeon. Te necesito como una madre necesita a un hijo. Te amo
I will always say this to you: this is not goodbye. It's simply a see you VERY soon!
HAPPY 1st MONTH MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL. HAPPY 1st MONTH ENZO LEANDRE! <3
- Mama & Papa
Many said there was a decent chance of you being born an angel... but no! You wanted to meet daddy and your grandmas and grandpa. You already knew me all too well, peanut. But you were eager to put a scent to those voices you heard those 5 months and 1 week. You loved us and we loved you so much that you held on strong, bubu! You wanted to know more about your crazy, crazy family :) You defeated all odds. You are our champion! Our shining star.
We live by those memories we had with you. We are nothing without your pictures. We have changed due to all the life lessons you taught us. We are beyond greatful for your existence. We are eternally thankful for giving us your whole life. And we are dedicating ours to you. You will live through us and we will live for you.
I have so many things to say in this blog. It's a very special one... it's your first angelversary (one month). It's the toughest blog I've had to write. I don't know exactly what to say because I'm sad (missing you) but smiling at our memories. You gave us more than we could have asked for by being born alive and giving us those long 4 hours and 25 minutes, so I will not be sad for you have given me something to rejoice.
I hope you liked the balloons. Your uncle Jeremias decorated some and the rest were your grandpa's artwork :) We each wrote you a letter for you to read on your special day. I know, mommy's was very long but there was so much I needed to say! You are the apple of my eyes, my sweet Enzo.
You are my wonderwall. My here, there, and everywhere. You are each and every second of my life. Each and every beat of my broken heart.
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity <3
For you my baby boy, for your strength, your bravery, your courage, your patience, your understanding, your love, your lessons taught, your life, your love. I know you are and will always be by my side. I always see you, in various different ways but it's always you. Always close to mama. That's my boy! :) I love you Enzo Leandre Griffit. This day, one month ago, I wish would have never ended. But 12 o'clock came and it was officially the 29th. I am now staring at the clock begging it to stop ticking. I want no more time to go by. I want it to stay here forever. I don't want it to be 3:43am. Please! I hope you have an amazing celebration up there with all of your friends. Have fun, enjoy, and I'll be waiting in bed to sleep with you. And you can tell me all about the party, your friends, the cake and all of the presents you got! Eat a lot of cake for mommy!!
Te amo Enzo. Te amo con todas mis fuerzas, con todo mi alma, con todo mi ser. Te extraño hijo. Te extraño mas de lo que las palabras me dejan espresar. Te necesito campeon. Te necesito como una madre necesita a un hijo. Te amo
I will always say this to you: this is not goodbye. It's simply a see you VERY soon!
HAPPY 1st MONTH MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL. HAPPY 1st MONTH ENZO LEANDRE! <3
- Mama & Papa