Another month, another 28th day... As your 6 months draws closer, my knees feel weak & my body feels breathless. I am at an awkward, and confusing part of my "grieving process". I am feeling "better" (it hurts me to say that) but I am having more and more difficulty parenting you from such a distance. I am your mother, no matter how high or how far you are. And I want to educate you, feed you, listen to your problems, love stories and jokes. I want to sing you to sleep and love you endlessly. I am doubting whether your favorite color is green now and if you truly like frogs... I don't know why. But I am. And it pains me to not know my son's favorite color or his favorite animal. I don't know what's right or wrong anymore. What I should or shouldn't do. What you like and dislike. It kills me.
I want to be the best mother. I really am trying soo hard to be. I make mistakes and I let unimportant things get the best of me, but you, Enzo... you are truly my everything. My every thought, breath, step, and heartbeat. You are my life, my love, and my entire being. I love you with every beat of my heart.
I miss you so much it hurts. I sleep with you every night, we watch tv, we talk, we remember... I am so thankful to have you so close to me all the time. Grandma said you visited her the other day !!! Made me feel so happy. Bubu, you are truly amazing. In ever possible way you are amazing <3
There is no greater love than this pupo. Enzo & mami forever!
Baci al cielo amore mio
-mama
I want to be the best mother. I really am trying soo hard to be. I make mistakes and I let unimportant things get the best of me, but you, Enzo... you are truly my everything. My every thought, breath, step, and heartbeat. You are my life, my love, and my entire being. I love you with every beat of my heart.
I miss you so much it hurts. I sleep with you every night, we watch tv, we talk, we remember... I am so thankful to have you so close to me all the time. Grandma said you visited her the other day !!! Made me feel so happy. Bubu, you are truly amazing. In ever possible way you are amazing <3
There is no greater love than this pupo. Enzo & mami forever!
Baci al cielo amore mio
-mama