My amazingly beautiful Angel visit
I welcomed them in at exactly 10:30pm on January 11, 2013. I was feeling a bit emotional, to the point where I had to hold back tears, a few minutes before their arrival. I was just thinking about Enzo and his perfect existence and realizing how much I miss him. I got myself together and went downstairs to invite them in. They came in and I felt the cold breeze from outside coming in. I took a deep breath, to breathe them in. To feel them. Once they were in, I felt peace. Tranquility. The first thing I noticed was the flame on the candle... so still. So perfectly lit. The candle is burning in perfect balance (all the sides are evenly burned down) with the flame high and so, so still. Another wonderful surprise from the Angels was the picture they left on my phone. I had just finished texting a friend and put my phone down. I picked it back up and on the screen was Enzo's pregnancy test. The two pink lines so marked, so sure of the pregnancy! I hope it is both a beautiful reminder of the past, of his beginnings AND a hopeful look at my future, and the many more children to come soon, very soon!
Day 2:
I went to watch some TV (at 1am on January 12th) and turned it to a Spanish show that I often watch (Mujeres al Limite) and one of the main characters was named Milena (she was called Milena throughout the show but her real name was Ana Milena - I was supposed to be named Ana Milena after my mom's friend who passed away shortly after giving birth to her son but Argentina did not let my mom sign me up with those names (because they were so rare) so my mother decided to go with just Milena). On the night of January 12th, I had a minor set back from all the serenity and peace the Angels had brought. I had a personal problem with my mother and brother and they really hurt me. I got extremely upset and angry at both of them, at life, at families, at myself... It was a very dark moment for me. After an hour or so of all the fights and hurtfulness, I decided to meditate and ask the Angels for help. I felt much calmer after that... but the conflict with my mother and brother remains.
Day 3:
I went shopping for this angel portrait I'm doing for Enzo's picture. I needed some feathers. I went to a few places and in one in particular, my first stop, I had SO MANY frog things jump out at me. It was as if they were screaming "LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME!" Needless to say, I got a bit sidetracked by the frog pillows and blankets, the frog winter hats for children, the frog socks, the frog ornaments, etc, etc. I bought Enzo the frog pillow and blanket for his crib :) I thought It'd be a lovely addition to his frog collection! I got my feathers and went on my way. I thought that was a nice gift from Enzo and the Angels! I also saw a couple new wonderful quotes that I will be adding to Enzo's walls.
1) Just one lifetime won't be enough for us ♥
&
2) Take my heart & walk through this world with me ♥
Day 4:
My left eye started to really burn and hurt this morning. It was watering and extremely red. Clearly, there was something wrong. I couldn't open my eye, let alone put contacts in them to see (and without contacts I cannot see a thing). My dad is away on a business trip... so, I had to call my mom. My mom and I spent the entire day at the doctor's office, then the pharmacy, and then she stayed at my house to help me with the eye drops. Oh, these angels :) !!! They've been here not even 4 full days and they already know me inside and out. I was really missing my mom and feeling a bit sad about my rant the day before. Needless to say, the drops are working and my eye is slowly bettering. I got to spend the day with my mom (I slept through most of it but, at least I had her near). My dad comes home tonight and the angels will all have officially met most of my family (the only one missing is my brother, but he is in a different country at the moment). I'm happy that we were all able to get a piece of the Angels. They will do us good ♥
Day 5:
As I had mentioned above, my dad was coming back last night. He came back rather late when I was already asleep. I heard him come in and he came into my room and tucked me in. Something he had not done EVER! It felt good, it was needed. A little love from my father. From Enzo's grandpa :) Today was a normal day... peaceful, thankful, emotional. Remembering Enzo, of course. Thinking about him, loving him, thanking him. And the time has come to say goodbye to my Angels. I am quite emotional as they have kept me company and given me more than I could have imagined. I will miss you my Angels. I will think of you often. And I thank you, deeply. For coming, for being with me, and for helping me in your magical ways. Please, please give Enzo the biggest, most loving KISS from me! Tell him I will never stop thinking about him. He is my one true love. I miss him :( Please take care of him up there... I LOVE YOU LITTLE MAN! ♥
Also, just realized that anGELs has Enzo's initials. That was a magnificent surprise :) Enzo Leandre Griffit... ELG - anGELs ♥ (that's love).
Milena
I welcomed them in at exactly 10:30pm on January 11, 2013. I was feeling a bit emotional, to the point where I had to hold back tears, a few minutes before their arrival. I was just thinking about Enzo and his perfect existence and realizing how much I miss him. I got myself together and went downstairs to invite them in. They came in and I felt the cold breeze from outside coming in. I took a deep breath, to breathe them in. To feel them. Once they were in, I felt peace. Tranquility. The first thing I noticed was the flame on the candle... so still. So perfectly lit. The candle is burning in perfect balance (all the sides are evenly burned down) with the flame high and so, so still. Another wonderful surprise from the Angels was the picture they left on my phone. I had just finished texting a friend and put my phone down. I picked it back up and on the screen was Enzo's pregnancy test. The two pink lines so marked, so sure of the pregnancy! I hope it is both a beautiful reminder of the past, of his beginnings AND a hopeful look at my future, and the many more children to come soon, very soon!
Day 2:
I went to watch some TV (at 1am on January 12th) and turned it to a Spanish show that I often watch (Mujeres al Limite) and one of the main characters was named Milena (she was called Milena throughout the show but her real name was Ana Milena - I was supposed to be named Ana Milena after my mom's friend who passed away shortly after giving birth to her son but Argentina did not let my mom sign me up with those names (because they were so rare) so my mother decided to go with just Milena). On the night of January 12th, I had a minor set back from all the serenity and peace the Angels had brought. I had a personal problem with my mother and brother and they really hurt me. I got extremely upset and angry at both of them, at life, at families, at myself... It was a very dark moment for me. After an hour or so of all the fights and hurtfulness, I decided to meditate and ask the Angels for help. I felt much calmer after that... but the conflict with my mother and brother remains.
Day 3:
I went shopping for this angel portrait I'm doing for Enzo's picture. I needed some feathers. I went to a few places and in one in particular, my first stop, I had SO MANY frog things jump out at me. It was as if they were screaming "LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME!" Needless to say, I got a bit sidetracked by the frog pillows and blankets, the frog winter hats for children, the frog socks, the frog ornaments, etc, etc. I bought Enzo the frog pillow and blanket for his crib :) I thought It'd be a lovely addition to his frog collection! I got my feathers and went on my way. I thought that was a nice gift from Enzo and the Angels! I also saw a couple new wonderful quotes that I will be adding to Enzo's walls.
1) Just one lifetime won't be enough for us ♥
&
2) Take my heart & walk through this world with me ♥
Day 4:
My left eye started to really burn and hurt this morning. It was watering and extremely red. Clearly, there was something wrong. I couldn't open my eye, let alone put contacts in them to see (and without contacts I cannot see a thing). My dad is away on a business trip... so, I had to call my mom. My mom and I spent the entire day at the doctor's office, then the pharmacy, and then she stayed at my house to help me with the eye drops. Oh, these angels :) !!! They've been here not even 4 full days and they already know me inside and out. I was really missing my mom and feeling a bit sad about my rant the day before. Needless to say, the drops are working and my eye is slowly bettering. I got to spend the day with my mom (I slept through most of it but, at least I had her near). My dad comes home tonight and the angels will all have officially met most of my family (the only one missing is my brother, but he is in a different country at the moment). I'm happy that we were all able to get a piece of the Angels. They will do us good ♥
Day 5:
As I had mentioned above, my dad was coming back last night. He came back rather late when I was already asleep. I heard him come in and he came into my room and tucked me in. Something he had not done EVER! It felt good, it was needed. A little love from my father. From Enzo's grandpa :) Today was a normal day... peaceful, thankful, emotional. Remembering Enzo, of course. Thinking about him, loving him, thanking him. And the time has come to say goodbye to my Angels. I am quite emotional as they have kept me company and given me more than I could have imagined. I will miss you my Angels. I will think of you often. And I thank you, deeply. For coming, for being with me, and for helping me in your magical ways. Please, please give Enzo the biggest, most loving KISS from me! Tell him I will never stop thinking about him. He is my one true love. I miss him :( Please take care of him up there... I LOVE YOU LITTLE MAN! ♥
Also, just realized that anGELs has Enzo's initials. That was a magnificent surprise :) Enzo Leandre Griffit... ELG - anGELs ♥ (that's love).
Milena